Friendship Alert

I do think it's important to keep in touch with friends because friendship passed away concurrently with the time passed away.

I have friendship alert from time-to-time. It's the time when you are questioning about yourself. "Should I stop paying effort?" 

Because of that, once the alert comes, there must be something happening. 

I always said we should all move on with lives but what if we move on too fast and ignored those are still in the "transition" zone? 

Time does the change all the time and that's why I like meeting new people to avoid I am getting stuck in the transition zone. 

I do think it's not a good strategy because i would give up things easily and get some new... 

Social Value and Culture Heritage

Riding on a tram, walking around in the Victoria Park, watching local to play soccer...

Have you ever thought of the social value and culture heritage in Hong Kong? this sounds so much like an introduction of a sustainability essay...

I always like Hong Kong Island. It's not because LKF is located in Central, it's also not because the property value in Hong Kong Island is higher. Although they're all the facts for the Hong Kong Island, there is one thing that Hong Kong is very different from the Kowloon side- The Victoria Park. Some may argue with me that there is Kowloon Park in Tsim Sha Tsui and it's also within all the tall building because of its location. I like Victoria Park because it gives me a different perspective to look at Hong Kong...

Surprisingly, I actually stayed in Victoria Park tonight to finish my dinner. And I sat along the side bench watching people to play soccer. I think the park gives me a very different perspective of Hong Kong. Hong Kong can be very energetic at night even most people have their work during the day time. They would still spare some time to play with friends. The park becomes a relaxing place for people even it is "bounded" or surrounded by the tall buildings. Most people are very casual in the park. Some of them may just live around the park, some of them may just pass through the park to walk to Tin Hau, but at the end I feel a different environment that I cannot find around my work places, school and home. I can find...different races of people sitting in the park, different ages of people, different people have different purposes in using the park... I think this is what social value meant to me. It's something you can really describe it in words but you are actually feeling something after staying there for a while...

Mysterious Connection

Have you ever thought of connection in your life?
Sometimes we may also refer connection to networking...

I traveled on MTR today and looking at different faces. All of  a sudden I found a face which seems I saw it before. I am there is a "mysterious connection" there.

Hmm...you have a lot of connections in your life...like friends, classmates or even a sales and a customer...but have you ever thought of why they  existed? or were they already existed before you realized there is a connection?

That's why sometimes we found that "click" in which we connect with a specific person very quickly. But in most of the time, it is not easy to connect with a people "well".

What's the purpose of life?

This topic/title sounds so old...but still, do you know the purpose of your life?

Let's get a review of what I thought about from my primary school (little kid)...
- Primary School - think about how I can get into a good secondary school (high school)
- Secondary School - think about my future career in general, what should i be? should i be an art, science or business student? how I can prepare for public exam and get into college!!
- College- think about how I can finish all the class in good grades...and jobs? and career? something to do after graduation? CONFUSION OCCURS!!
- Master (NOW) - HMM...

Confusion occurred right after the college graduation. I feel like an ending with everything I prepared in the past (when i was a baby, a little kid, to a student). The ultimate goal in the past would be graduating in college. But I have never thought about what I would want to work for. Some may say people should always wait until graduate in college. Some may have already planned what they want to do for their future. It was a really confusing time when I graduated from college, and now...confusion "re-appears" as the master degree has started for 1/4 of the whole degree time already.

What do i want to do? I absolutely do not want to work in the government or any kind of job that is meaningless. Hmm...I am kinda glad that I got the internship in World Wide Fund. Seriously, even this is a non-paid internship (which is many people's concern), I feel meaningful with what I am working with. "I actually can do something to change the environment, to stick with my favorite topic- climate change" ...I would rather to work with something that I love to... that I may contribute to but not only to work in an office with repeatable procedures and repeatable speaking...

but then, most people only concern about money...who will give a shit about environment?

and how about me?

money? future?

"YOLO"

[I LUV GEOG] SCHOOL TEACHER IS NOT TRUE!

WHAT YOU CAN DO FOR GEOGRAPHY MAJOR IN HONG KONG? DOC. FROM HKU...
....what the...










6547 Earth Sciences Programme


Difference between Geography and Earth Sciences



Prepared by Department of Earth Sciences, HKU (http://www.hku.hk/earthsci/rock.html)



Geography - The study of the earth’s surface, form, physical features, natural and political divisions, climate, productions, population, etc. Geography is usually divided into two main branches – physical geography and human geography. It is the physical geography part which is more closely related to earth sciences. Subjects commonly studied include:

Biogeography (study of the distribution of plants and animals)

Cartography (study of maps and diagrams)

Climatology (study of climate)

Geographical information system (study of computer applications in geography)

Geomorphology (study of landforms)

Historical geography (study of the history of geographical development)

Pedology (study of soils)

Transportation geography (study of communications)

Urban geography (study of major settlements especially cities)

Career - Mainly as school teachers



Earth sciences - The science including:

Climatology (study of climate)

Economic geology (study of materials that can be utilized profitably)

Engineering geology (study of geological applications in engineering)

Geochemistry (study of the chemistry of the earth)

Geochronology (study of dating methods and their applications)

Geomorphology (study of landforms)

Geophysics (study of the physics of the earth)

Hydrology (study of global water)

Meteorology (study of the atmosphere)

Mineralogy (study of minerals)

Oceanography (study of oceans)

Palaeoclimatology (study of climates of the past)

Palaeoecology (study of the relationship between organisms and environment in the past)

Palaeogeography (reconstruction of the physical geography of the past)

Palaeontology (study of fossils and the history of life on Earth)

Pedology (study of soils)

Petrology (study of rocks)

Planetary geology (study of the geology of other planets)

Sedimentology (study of sediments and sedimentary rocks)

Stratigraphy (study of layered rocks in time and space)

Structural geology (study of geological structures)

Tectonics (study of the larger deformation features)

Volcanology (study of volcanoes and their associated products)

Career - More variable depending on specialization; in Hong Kong mainly as geologists/engineering geologists/geotechnical engineers

you can find the document here at this website: http://www.earthsciences.hku.hk/index.php/site/outreach/   IT IS NOT TRUE! I CAN WORK AS A GIS ANALYST OR URBAN PLANNING OR ENVIRONMENTAL CONSULTANT BASED ON LAND TYPES!! I CAN THINK OF AT LEAST THREE THINGS!

Losing something in your life

Last week, I was a little bit sad because I lost something in my life- A friend.
I had that experience of losing friends in my life, especially in my childhood. Those time was ... I do not even want to think about them anymore.
Because of my bad temper, I lost a lot of my friends in my life. Lost means ...without contact or not even facebook friends...isn't it sad? You are not even facebook friends with someone you had memories with.
Since I graduated from my high school, I realized the importance of friends and the importance of how to keep your friends in touch. I don't want to be a lonely freak when I am old. That's why I tried to care my friends as much as I can. Though, I don't think I care enough about my friends. I can't keep everything update to my friends all the time...and that's the time we called "move on"...

I had the same shit happened last week. I felt like I am losing a friend...but then I tried to keep calm and told myself there's nothing I can do if I am really losing a friend. Seriously, I would be freaking out in the past because I feel like I did something wrong again and people are trying to isolate and ignore me...but yea...

We always need to move on with our lives right? it's like I was so mad about everything in Hong Kong but now I get used of most of the thing.
I was so pissed off with the school stuff, but I still have to move on and finish my school...
WE BORN TO MOVE ON...WE HAVE NO CHOICE...lol

For you, I wanna use one lyrics in  "somebody I used to know" to end this post. It came to my attention to be friends or not friends. I just found I was an idiot to keep in touch with you which you didn't even give a fuck to...

Idiot must not be a word to describe myself.


Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

Tears

There is always a reason for someone to cry. It could be something happened, but I guess it's mostly about emotions.
I don't cry often. I only cry when I think there must be something happen later, mostly a change of a "status" or a relationship. What I mean is, I usually don't cry for someone or something, I cry for nothing. You would want to know what means "nothing". It's like my experience before I came back from the states. I realized there must be a change between me and my friends. Then, I cried not because of my friends, it's for the change. And I knew that would be a forever change and we would not be that close again.
I cried for something I guess it would never come back such as feeling... that's why I said I cried for nothing.

Care

What is care? In my opinion, there are two types of "care"- Physically and Mentally.

Physically means some physical actual care, for example, you give away your seat to an elderly or someone in need when you are on a bus/public transport. It shows you care that person because that person is in need of a seat.

Mentally means it's more emotional base. You talk to your friend when he/she is sad. That is an example of mentally care because you are actually helping your friend or just help him/her to be happy.


"I care about you" should be in both physically and mentally. I don't think it's care enough when both are not happening at the same time.

It's not fit!

Hi! All of  a sudden I want to type a blog post. I would want to type a blog post for many times over the past few weeks, however, I was just too lazy to type out some stuff.

I came back from the states for almost a month! I still remember how I felt super uncomfortable on the first week in Hong Kong. It's so crowded everywhere. I couldn't breathe at all because of the poor air quality. My home looks so small to me compared to where I lived in the states. The size of the food is so small compared to the states. Everything looks really different to me. I almost cried on the street one day while I was walking back to my home-> noises around you such as people were talking so loud, cars were driving crazily, you heard the horns all the time, people around you were so rushing to somewhere... I guess this is what Hong Kong looks like in general, or what a metropolitan looks like in general, RUSH and BUSY!

My family and friends thought I was pretending. Absolutely NOT! No one really knows about me! I really enjoyed the time when I was in the states. I have been in the states for four years. I had the awesome four years and I never thought I would be coming back to Hong Kong! I thought I could get a job and stay in the states forever. Though I don't hate Hong Kong, I really think I don't belong to Hong Kong! Hong Kong is really a good place for vacation purpose, but definitely not for STUDY and WORK for me.

If you know me, you would know I was admitted by the Master of Science in Environmental Management, University of Hong Kong. I should be happy just like my family that I was admitted by the best university in Hong Kong. But then, I am more worried about my future. Before coming back from the States, I had my goal and I did know what I want. I want to study for master and do research. I like doing research on climatology and tropical cyclone. I really want to further study the structure of tropical cyclone and the relationship between the tropical cyclone and the long term climate change. I thought it would be something that I would want to study for the longest time. I talked to my professors and told them what my interests are!

It's just totally different after coming back from the states. HONG KONG concerns about money and title. Master Program in Hong Kong is different from the States! We have RESEARCH and TAUGHT program. TAUGHT program is like undergraduate because most of the time you would be taking classes and RESEARCH program would be more like the states. I was admitted by a taught program and funding is not provided. I really want to study something I really want and I really like. The program I got admitted does not related to tropical cyclone or climatology. BUT THIS IS HONG KONG. One year later, I will be a master... but I don't feel like I would be the same kind of mater compare to those in the States.

It is ultimately important for family support. Hong Kong only concerns about job opportunity and MONEY. My family never encouraged me to go for research masters or Phds. They asked me to study the master I got admitted because they thought the job market is unforeseeable and I should study master for now. I would really want to give up the master but they are actually paying my tuition fee. I respect them that's why I  am still going master in Hong Kong.

"It's like you don't fit in your clothing" - I am just not fit in here. People are rushing, and all concerning about chances, money, and how you can make more money, power... who would give a shit to environment or even CLIMATOLOGY? hmm...the reason I was typing this all of a sudden...because I was visiting Colorado State University website and it reminds me of what I ACTUALLY LIKE and what I ACTUALLY WANT TO DO!

不要沉醉在自己的世界

有人問, 點解要離開美國? 點解要買返香港既機票?
我只回答四個字: 面對現實.


有人問, 其實你自己想點? 你講一套做一套!
我回答不了.


我發現其實要做好一件事, 我確實可以做到. 例如: 我要做好一份project, 我會deadline前做好. 我要去買野, 我會去買. 我要執屋, 我頂唔順就真係會執屋. 基本上, 我從來唔認同講一套做一套.


不過, 偶爾也會有例外.


這兩三個月畢業後的經歷, 令我再次了解自己其實是一個怎樣的人. 我曾經認為我是爛泥, 也曾經因為自己會成為major裡最有用的人. 人生總經歷高低起跌, 我明白.


但今日我想share係一個畢業後既故事, 當作一個紀錄.
由唔知何時開始, 我開始鍾意analyse 人的反應. 就好似心戰入面既靳兆楠.  可能其實以前打麻雀我都好鍾意analyse其他人的反應一樣而去睇其實佢副牌點樣. 呢個係關於我同x小姐既故事, 故事一開始, 我已經清楚明白自己的方向. 我好清楚自己的角色. 無論你認同又好, 唔認同都好, 角色係由我自己來定. 其實我對x小姐既assumption一直都無變, 立場一直都無變. 直至今日, 依然無變. 所謂講一套做一套, 可能係我對角色有太大期望, 而做成的錯誤. 我相信x小姐去到今日依然無變, 大家其實好清楚自己想點. 我曾經給予x小姐好多既機會推翻我既assumption, 好可惜, 2個月後的今日, 我無assume錯. 我既analyze亦都到此為止.
我今日想將呢個故事share, 唔係要向任何人revenge, 係我知道呢個角色已經徹底失敗, 故事也應該完結. 角色失敗既始末就係其他人開始討論我既性格...等等. 其實如果大家由此至終都認真咁相信我, 當睇戲咁睇, 我根本唔會本能反應地去response你地一個二個對我既"回應". 
心戰講過, 真相和謊言根本唔重要, 最重要係我地相信甚麼! 我相信自己我更加相信真相! 有人話, 我當局者迷, 我相信我比任何人清楚自己既角色同做緊咩事. 有日行街, 一句"You only fail to learn, but not learn to fail" 更加肯定自己當初的角色.  
我承認曾經將x小姐當作以前女朋友看待. 不過, 人總需要move on, 我從來唔係一個企定定既人, 我知道我已經沉醉在自己的世界2個月. 玩完了!


3首歌: 

陳柏宇-拍一半拖 (太多選擇了!)

明知你只懂得愛自己　誰都似會更配得起你 

請體恤彼此一般孤單　這給你是愛無需奉還 
就算我在必須不需之間　誰怪你抱著去揀

關楚耀 – 我還是甚麼 (一個答案, 三次答覆, 多謝你令這個世界沒有失望)

何不講得你清我楚　從此世界沒有失望

古巨基-戀無可戀 (再等? 我的時間並不是用來等人. )

已經戀到無可戀慕後　換到同情才罷休
跨出這條界線　怎去善後
也許這種愛剛足夠　
笑著承認愛錯
無怨地分手

朋友　別引誘

6/10 就好像剛剛winter 畢業! 重新開始

告一段落

不理這世界多罕有　反正只愛伴你夢遊
再碰上運氣都不及你
做夢每天跟你　種下長期盛放的薔薇
無數夜晚共你欣賞天氣

無奈告一段落　短促的幻覺
從某月某日再不奢望會有結果
繼續愛下去於可　有趣　伴侶漸覺累
怎麼會也剩低一片焦土
存著什麼　問題為何會越多
失去預計怎料　我共你在一夜之間分割
沒有昨天的知覺　承認我已經不懂開口
直到吻下去　才發現已放手

回味每一秒　浮現那天雨中糾纏
等不到結局最後某夜各自甦醒
過後遺下再無人到過的家　痕跡被滅去
留下像褪色多天的心痛眼瓷@長久(從此)裝飾下去＊

不怕灰暗伴你逗留　跟你走到異國盡頭
怕欠缺力氣捉不住你
日落縱使不美　卻像藏著獨有的奧秘
才會讓我共你　不捨不棄

I really think I need to stop. I really want to end this because it's not gonna work. This is a good song I don't want to deal with any emotions and relationships anymore I just want to stay calm waiting for my graduate school results. I know I have to go back to Hong Kong I don't want to go back who I was originally or 4 years ago. Life is already tiring I don't think I deserve something like this. I want something chill and normal. Yeah. I agree I was lonely and I want to stick with someone else but it made no sense to me when I knew I lost many friends and classmates and was doing something really stupid. I knew there would be no "outcome" at the end because everything is too late too late. I hate being indecisive. I guess you know I am indecisive too that's why you think I would stick around with you?
On the other hand, I have trust issue too. I am pretty sure I don't really trust what people telling me. I prefer what I feel and what I see from my eyes. Yes. I like guessing and analyzing people. This is so true because everything that i guessed and analyzed still fits. I don't think I got anything wrong this time. But thanks I think you just need more time to deal with your life too. I saw what you were saying about geography, however, I can't ask myself to trust you even you told me you were awake to study...this is so lame because i couldn't believe even one small thing from you. I guess you just lied too much in the past. I tried to trust you but my mind doesn't allow me to do it. haha this is really funny. I am just free writing on my blog.

I really hope Master of Science from both school would accept me because I still think I am a Science people after six years! :D

fake

human is fake.
I hate fake human.

勇氣

其實我很欣賞自己有這一份勇氣, 我很想記下來, 因為我從來都只是一個沒有勇氣的人.

這份勇氣不代表我不恐懼自己的堅持, 但我明白要自己拿出這份勇氣完全不易

雖然不知道往後的事會是怎樣, 但我很高興認識這個人!

im needy

im needy...

but i don't deserve someone will like me or I don't deserve to like someone.

Controlling myself is the only way to go because I know I will forget whoever I like very fast.

It's just the same this time. Nothing is different.

這十年來做過的事能令你無悔驕傲嗎?

給十年後的我

歌手：薛凱琪

作曲：陳小霞

填詞：黃偉文

編曲：Billy Chan

這十年來做過的事

能令你無悔　驕傲嗎

那時候你所相信的事

沒有被動搖吧

對象和緣份已出現

成就也還算不賴嗎

旅途上你增添了經歷

又有讓稜角　消失嗎

軟弱嗎

你成熟了　不會失去格調吧

當初堅持還在嗎

刀鋒不會　磨鈍了吧

老練嗎

你情願變得　聰明而不衝動嗎

但變成　步步停下三思　會累嗎

快樂嗎

你還是記得你跟我約定吧

區區幾場成敗裡

應該不致　麻木了吧

快樂嗎

你忘掉理想　只能忙於生活嗎

別太遲　又十年後至想　快樂嗎

黃偉文作品, 薛凱琪的歌. 很多人都不以為意這首歌, 但其實這是一首很有意思的歌.

這十年來做過的事能令你無悔驕傲嗎?

You chose your life, you made your life.

can't bring me down.

While working on my research proposal for CUHK that DUE several hours later, I would conclude my life. I have to admit that was my choice when I first came to UCLA.

I realize time is always a matter. When I first came to UCLA, I only went to two student organizations to meet new friends, alpha phi omega and Chinese Christian Fellowship. They are two completely different organizations, mostly local people in alpha phi omega and mostly hong kong people in Chinese christian fellowship.

I attended at least 5 meetings for Chinese christian fellowship and I made my choice. I decided to stick in alpha phi omega. I decided to pledge alpha phi omega to experience something I never experienced before. 1.5 years later, I realize I got suck-ed into this organization.
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Let say I made a choice to stay in Chinese Christian fellowship. I may hang out with bunch of hong kong fobs at the end because most of time or my majority of friends will be in this organization. That sounds cool because I can talk to "my" people and won't feel lonely and left out.

After 1.5 years of alpha phi omega, I realize I have only a few friends from hong kong and I do not fit in here. SO I decided to "explore" new organization or give a shot to CCF again. BUT time is really a matter. I checked on facebook (the worst thing ever in the world) and I saw some people were in CCF when I first came to UCLA and now they become a group of fobs hanging together. Which means, they spent the 1.5 years hanging around together and became good friends.

What happen to next? I realize it's too late for me to get a bunch of friends like this. I can only trace back the day in my memory. I claim myself as dumb because I am in the middle of all kinds of people, between local and international, between boys and girls, between you and me.

Although shit happens, a song from Paul Wong enlightens my life. No matter what happens in the remaining 3 months in UCLA, "can't bring me down!"

I look so fucking gay

My first goal in 2012 is TO GET RID OF THE FUCKING GAY OUTLOOK. I just realized I look so fucking gay.

I hate the fucking gay look. The Clothes I wear, the way I speak, the body I look, are all fucking gay. I can't accept this. I have 5 more days till my birthday and for the coming year I hope I have a new change and new look.

HATE

找找我

又一晚想著同一個問題. 這夜卻有點不同, 我決定改變一下自己, 主動聯絡一些人.
才發現自己跟別人的相處模式, 就正正是別人跟我的相處方式, 我從來不是主動聯絡別人吹水的人, 面對曾經熟識而變得陌生的人, 這夜所撥的電話來得有點突兀, 有點接不下去要找新話題的感覺.
原來面對一些變得陌生的人, 本應是很容易找話題但卻因為有太多選擇而變得無話可說. 我應該問你的近況, 你的生活, 還是一些無聊不起眼之事? 還是我應該分享自己的問題? 很奇怪, 陌生就是陌生了, 要將一些近身話題搬出來討論變得沒可能, 因為大家對各自的了解變得很少.

還記得我曾經問自己: "為何我要找人?而不是別人來問候我?" 自私一點的看, 我想別人關心. 但真正的是, 雖我願意放開這一點自私變成關心別人的那位, 但單向的還是敵不過時間的考驗. 久而久之, 談話內容變得無關重要, 對別人變得漠不關心.

這幾天說著同一句話: 來我的畢業禮! 我明白事實上, 大家各自有著自己的計劃, 隨口說說, 我並不期望有人會出席, 有人來了變當作上天給我的禮物. 人大了, 強求的往往是最吃力不討好.

我希望關心別人的同時, 也會得到別人關心. 我相信這是我的bottom line. 無論是何種所處模式, 只要顯出丁點關心, 誠意已經足夠. 這本應就是基本所處模式, 何解要複雜化?

但世事難料, 關心別人, 但別人卻漠不關心, 卻是最難維繫的一種.

十大最愛

第一年對叱吒頒獎禮無期望亦無衝動要全集觀看. 這個頒獎禮變得越來越有bias. 跟那些年的已經不一樣...
以下是2011 ipod播放率十大也是我最愛的十大歌.
至尊歌: 那誰 蘇永康(23) + 那誰沒有下次 蘇永康/卓韻芝 (71) = 94
2. 你們的幸福 謝安琪 (91)
3. 末日 王菀之 (69) + 前 1分30秒 (14) = 83
4. 最後派對 陳奕迅 (69)
5. 一再問究竟 梁漢文 (60)
6. 陽光燦爛的日子 周國賢(42) + Sunshine Version (15) = 47
7. Kiss Kiss Kiss 鄭融 (52)
8. 我本人 吳雨霏 (48)
9. 癡情司 何韻詩 (47)
10. 由他去 官恩娜 (44)

最高播放率女歌手: 謝安琪 (134)
最高播放率男歌手: 陳奕迅 (140)
最高播放率組合: C All Star (41)

那些年...跟這些年

雖然沒有真真正正看過<那些年>, 但我相信可以從中回想過去.

新的一年有新的體會.
突然想起一位以往的好朋友, 想起那些年, 中學時期跟朋友的相處模式, 就是"心照". 有些事情無須經常放在口中, 但大家明白這種相處方式, 大家亦明白對方是自己的好朋友, 因為有事情發生總會找對方"訴苦".
但人大了, 不知不覺這種天真, 簡單而直接的相處模式亦漸漸失去,因為漸漸識朋友要分門別類, 哪一種是"心照"? 哪一種是"過客"? 有時連自己都弄不清楚. 人大了, 經歷多了, 亦會同時明白付出未必得到回報, 亦未必得到別人欣賞. 就例如, 你跟A做朋友, 但A卻認為你只是過客, 敷衍對待. 久而久之, 你對這種相處模式失去信心.
正因為從如此, 這些年, 我很少再跟朋友用這種相處模式, 因為每每都需要一個肯定一個答案. 究竟是"過客"還是"心照"? 還沒有答案, 我還是不敢跟人做朋友.

這些年遇過幾位跟以往好朋友一樣, 有著同一種性格, 同一種跟朋友的相處模式, 這幾個人相處方式看起來很似. 但對於這些年的我, 已經失去那種天真, 那種我明白你是我的朋友. 想了想, 現在的我再跟這類性格的人交朋友變成沒可能, 因為我已經再不能變回那些年的我.