There is always a reason for someone to cry. It could be something happened, but I guess it's mostly about emotions.
I don't cry often. I only cry when I think there must be something happen later, mostly a change of a "status" or a relationship. What I mean is, I usually don't cry for someone or something, I cry for nothing. You would want to know what means "nothing". It's like my experience before I came back from the states. I realized there must be a change between me and my friends. Then, I cried not because of my friends, it's for the change. And I knew that would be a forever change and we would not be that close again.
I cried for something I guess it would never come back such as feeling... that's why I said I cried for nothing.
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Care
What is care? In my opinion, there are two types of "care"- Physically and Mentally.
Physically means some physical actual care, for example, you give away your seat to an elderly or someone in need when you are on a bus/public transport. It shows you care that person because that person is in need of a seat.
Mentally means it's more emotional base. You talk to your friend when he/she is sad. That is an example of mentally care because you are actually helping your friend or just help him/her to be happy.
"I care about you" should be in both physically and mentally. I don't think it's care enough when both are not happening at the same time.
Physically means some physical actual care, for example, you give away your seat to an elderly or someone in need when you are on a bus/public transport. It shows you care that person because that person is in need of a seat.
Mentally means it's more emotional base. You talk to your friend when he/she is sad. That is an example of mentally care because you are actually helping your friend or just help him/her to be happy.
"I care about you" should be in both physically and mentally. I don't think it's care enough when both are not happening at the same time.
Sunday, August 26, 2012
It's not fit!
Hi! All of a sudden I want to type a blog post. I would want to type a blog post for many times over the past few weeks, however, I was just too lazy to type out some stuff.
I came back from the states for almost a month! I still remember how I felt super uncomfortable on the first week in Hong Kong. It's so crowded everywhere. I couldn't breathe at all because of the poor air quality. My home looks so small to me compared to where I lived in the states. The size of the food is so small compared to the states. Everything looks really different to me. I almost cried on the street one day while I was walking back to my home-> noises around you such as people were talking so loud, cars were driving crazily, you heard the horns all the time, people around you were so rushing to somewhere... I guess this is what Hong Kong looks like in general, or what a metropolitan looks like in general, RUSH and BUSY!
My family and friends thought I was pretending. Absolutely NOT! No one really knows about me! I really enjoyed the time when I was in the states. I have been in the states for four years. I had the awesome four years and I never thought I would be coming back to Hong Kong! I thought I could get a job and stay in the states forever. Though I don't hate Hong Kong, I really think I don't belong to Hong Kong! Hong Kong is really a good place for vacation purpose, but definitely not for STUDY and WORK for me.
If you know me, you would know I was admitted by the Master of Science in Environmental Management, University of Hong Kong. I should be happy just like my family that I was admitted by the best university in Hong Kong. But then, I am more worried about my future. Before coming back from the States, I had my goal and I did know what I want. I want to study for master and do research. I like doing research on climatology and tropical cyclone. I really want to further study the structure of tropical cyclone and the relationship between the tropical cyclone and the long term climate change. I thought it would be something that I would want to study for the longest time. I talked to my professors and told them what my interests are!
It's just totally different after coming back from the states. HONG KONG concerns about money and title. Master Program in Hong Kong is different from the States! We have RESEARCH and TAUGHT program. TAUGHT program is like undergraduate because most of the time you would be taking classes and RESEARCH program would be more like the states. I was admitted by a taught program and funding is not provided. I really want to study something I really want and I really like. The program I got admitted does not related to tropical cyclone or climatology. BUT THIS IS HONG KONG. One year later, I will be a master... but I don't feel like I would be the same kind of mater compare to those in the States.
It is ultimately important for family support. Hong Kong only concerns about job opportunity and MONEY. My family never encouraged me to go for research masters or Phds. They asked me to study the master I got admitted because they thought the job market is unforeseeable and I should study master for now. I would really want to give up the master but they are actually paying my tuition fee. I respect them that's why I am still going master in Hong Kong.
"It's like you don't fit in your clothing" - I am just not fit in here. People are rushing, and all concerning about chances, money, and how you can make more money, power... who would give a shit to environment or even CLIMATOLOGY? hmm...the reason I was typing this all of a sudden...because I was visiting Colorado State University website and it reminds me of what I ACTUALLY LIKE and what I ACTUALLY WANT TO DO!
I came back from the states for almost a month! I still remember how I felt super uncomfortable on the first week in Hong Kong. It's so crowded everywhere. I couldn't breathe at all because of the poor air quality. My home looks so small to me compared to where I lived in the states. The size of the food is so small compared to the states. Everything looks really different to me. I almost cried on the street one day while I was walking back to my home-> noises around you such as people were talking so loud, cars were driving crazily, you heard the horns all the time, people around you were so rushing to somewhere... I guess this is what Hong Kong looks like in general, or what a metropolitan looks like in general, RUSH and BUSY!
My family and friends thought I was pretending. Absolutely NOT! No one really knows about me! I really enjoyed the time when I was in the states. I have been in the states for four years. I had the awesome four years and I never thought I would be coming back to Hong Kong! I thought I could get a job and stay in the states forever. Though I don't hate Hong Kong, I really think I don't belong to Hong Kong! Hong Kong is really a good place for vacation purpose, but definitely not for STUDY and WORK for me.
If you know me, you would know I was admitted by the Master of Science in Environmental Management, University of Hong Kong. I should be happy just like my family that I was admitted by the best university in Hong Kong. But then, I am more worried about my future. Before coming back from the States, I had my goal and I did know what I want. I want to study for master and do research. I like doing research on climatology and tropical cyclone. I really want to further study the structure of tropical cyclone and the relationship between the tropical cyclone and the long term climate change. I thought it would be something that I would want to study for the longest time. I talked to my professors and told them what my interests are!
It's just totally different after coming back from the states. HONG KONG concerns about money and title. Master Program in Hong Kong is different from the States! We have RESEARCH and TAUGHT program. TAUGHT program is like undergraduate because most of the time you would be taking classes and RESEARCH program would be more like the states. I was admitted by a taught program and funding is not provided. I really want to study something I really want and I really like. The program I got admitted does not related to tropical cyclone or climatology. BUT THIS IS HONG KONG. One year later, I will be a master... but I don't feel like I would be the same kind of mater compare to those in the States.
It is ultimately important for family support. Hong Kong only concerns about job opportunity and MONEY. My family never encouraged me to go for research masters or Phds. They asked me to study the master I got admitted because they thought the job market is unforeseeable and I should study master for now. I would really want to give up the master but they are actually paying my tuition fee. I respect them that's why I am still going master in Hong Kong.
"It's like you don't fit in your clothing" - I am just not fit in here. People are rushing, and all concerning about chances, money, and how you can make more money, power... who would give a shit to environment or even CLIMATOLOGY? hmm...the reason I was typing this all of a sudden...because I was visiting Colorado State University website and it reminds me of what I ACTUALLY LIKE and what I ACTUALLY WANT TO DO!
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